The Mudism Holy Scriptures

Kill

The Book of Lost And Found

Index:

01. Determined (2:39)
02. Pushing Through (3:28)
03. Happy? (3:37)
04. IMN (5:50)
05. Fall Into Sleep (3:51)
06. Rain. Sun. Gone (4:35)
07. Choices (8:05)
08. Forget To Remember (3:35)
09. TV Radio (3:26)
10. Just (3:00)
11. All That You Are (6:11)
12. Pulling The String (5:05)

 

1. Determined

Go....
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
You better believe it, confidence
Go...
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
Spit out all reason
Yeah

I'm tired of holdin' up the weight, the weight of the mother fucking world
All I want is just to get right here, right now
We struggle and fight just to get in a grave, that's overflowing
Clocks ticking on my fifteen minutes of fame, come on now 123

Go....
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
You better believe it, confidence
Go...
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
Spit out all reason
Yeah

I'm flushing the trust of everyone, stabbing in the back and thinkin' they can break me
Set my sight can't die 'till I'm done, mind endurance
Never wanted anymore than what I deserve, better bring it I'm taking it all
Fuck an inch 'cause I'm bringin' a mile, it's on now 123

Go....
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
You better believe it, confidence
Go...
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
Spit out all reason
Yeah

This fire, is growing, is burning deep inside of me
Focused, driven, certain, the way it's got to be
Fire. Growing. Burning. Deep inside of me
Focused, driven, certain, the way it's got to be
Crooked, no trust, liars, conmen, drunk with, power
Mentor, taught me everything that I know...

So wrong
Wrong
Wrong
Wrong....

123 go...
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
You better believe it, confidence
Go...
So fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
Spit out all reason
Yeah

Go....
I'm fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
You better believe it, confidence
Go...
I'm fucking determined
Yeah, yeah go....
Spit out all reason
Yeah

 

2. Pushing Through

Rip the womb, feeling so sorry, selfish, and sore
Wish I wasn't born
Piece by piece, I can carry it all, strength to be driven
So unforgiving, anything is possible
Like leaving you all, I'm turning my back on this killing so small

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Eye for an eye I'm a pushing through this
My law

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Tooth for a tooth I'm a pushing through this
Through you

Salt the wound, cut through a conscience I've failed to explore
The calm before the storm
Speak your peace and Prepare for the fall, words have been chosen
Tainting the gift, lying truths so increditable
So fuck you all, I'm turning my back on this killing so small

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Eye for an eye I'm a pushing through this
My law

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Tooth for a tooth I'm a pushing through this
Through you

Spread the word, the killing is over
Spread the word, the killing is over

Severed, more than, I am, more than I ever was
Blindside, threatened, my worth, sequestered deliverance
You stoned a part of me
You've taken a part of me

Try, you wanted to be, wanted to have a
Life, you wanted to fight, wanted the right, your
Lies, spoken to me without a conscious, no right
Why, breaking a mold, breaking the trust, a
Child, innocent lost, ultimate cost, the
Loss, life so undone, deserted the seed, you've buried the bottle

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Eye for an eye I'm a pushing through this
My law

Step by step I'm a pushing through this
All of you get away from me
Tooth for a tooth I'm a pushing through this
Through you

Step by step I'm a pushing through
Eye for an eye I'm pushing through
Tooth for a tooth I'm pushing through
Pushing through, pushing through, pushing through, pushing through
Pushing, pushing, pushing, pushing through

 

3. Happy?

In this hole, that is me, the dead are rolling over
In this hole, thickening, dirt shoveled over shoulders
I feel it in me, so overwhelmed, oh this pressured center rising
My life overturned, unfair the despair, all these scars keep ripping open

Peel me from the skin, tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone, tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

In this hole, that is me, a life that's growing feeble
In this hole, so limiting, the sun has set all darkens
Buried underneath, hands slip off the wheel
Internal pathway to contention

Peel me from the skin, tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone, tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?
Happy?
Happy?
Are you feeling happy?

In this hole that is me, left with a heart exhausted
What's my release? What sets me free?
Do you pull me up just to push me down again?

Peel me from the skin, tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone, tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Peel me from the skin (peel me from the skin), tear me from the rind
Does it make you happy now?
Tear meat from the bone (tear meat from the bone), tear me from myself
Are you feeling happy now?

Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy now that I'm lost left with nothing
Does it make you happy?
Are you feeling happy?
Are you fucking happy now that I'm lost left with nothing

 

4. IMN

Suicide, don't give a fuck about this, my life, or any other
Just go away and let me hang, impossible to forgive, forget it, murderer
I'm in control
Living a lie, make you pay at all cost for this, love sick bullshit, bring it
Decisions making themselves, I don't need you, thorns in my side
So I die...

No one, no one could ever understand
My life's exhausted
No one, no one could ever understand
This life, IMN...

Determined, to bring you all down with me, break you, beat down
No more fucking empathy, from me, for you, fed up,
I've had enough
Duality, my war, existence, instigated controversy, lay down, sell out, so wrong
Drag the blade and go away, I stand, cold cruel and lost
Take me, I'm ready

No one, no one could ever understand
My life's exhausted
No one, no one could ever understand
Pressure constricting

So hard like a stone, fight hard
Break bones, break
No one, no one could ever understand
This life, IMN

Your pressure, my time, eroding my life
Fight for your honesty, fight for integrity

All work and no play (all work and no play)
All work and no play makes me (all work and no play)
All work and no play makes me sick

Ready to eat a bullet, carve myself
Beat my face, catotonic
Dig my brain, no pain
Suffocate, stomach aches
Don't give a fuck, I'm out
I'm done, fuck this shit
You've dug the hole I'm lying in

No one could ever understand
No one could ever understand

Fight for your honesty, fight for integrity

No one, no one could ever understand
My life's exhausted
No one, no one could ever understand
Pressure constricting

So hard like a stone, fight hard
Break bones, break
No one, no one could ever understand
This life, IMN

My world, my rules, my noose
My world, my rules, fuck you
My world, my rules, my noose
My world, my rules, fuck you

 

5. Fall Into Sleep

Dreams of earthquakes, dreams of hurricanes
Dreams of pouring rain, dreams of tidal waves
To wash us all away
Dreams of guns blazed, dreams of fire rage
Dreams of swollen graves, dreams of hollow pain
All gone
No more fallen, no more enemy, no more casuality, no more dream

Fall into sleep, fall into me
I have a dream but nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me
Hang onto a dream that nobody wants, nobody cares anymore

Dreams of mourning grief, dreams of disbelief
Dreams of tragedy, dreams of our disease
To take us all away
Dreams of fidelity, dreams of inner peace
Dreams of loyalty, dreams of unity
All gone, all gone

Fall into sleep, fall into me
I have a dream but nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me
Hang onto a dream that nobody wants, nobody cares anymore

The angels are injured, fall with broken burning wings
Are we dead inside, are we blind?
We can't keep moving forward, backwards with closed eyes
We're losing sight, all lost inside

No more fallen, no more enemy
Fall into sleep, fall into me
I have a dream but nobody cares, nobody wants to listen
Fall into sleep, fall into me
Hang onto a dream that nobody wants, nobody cares, nobody wants, nobody cares, anymore
All gone, all gone, all gone

All gone

 

6. Rain. Sun. Gone.

So far, left with nothing, hanging by a memory
No stars, to give me one wish, so lost in the dark
Feels like I'm caving in from the outside
All right, all wrong, see you again, so long

Nothing matters anymore at all
Nothing matters anymore

Life's not meant to be disposable
Lost. Found. Dead.
Ready and willing, can't stop the bleeding
Life's not meant to be expendable
Rain. Sun. Gone.
Left robbed unwilling, can't fight the feeling

So low, overwhelming, clinging to a tragedy
So clear, hear weeping voices, tears fall in the dark
Feels like I'm carving in from the outside
So lost, so gone, so wrong

Life's not meant to be disposable
Lost. Found. Dead.
Ready and willing, can't stop the bleeding
Life's not meant to be expendable
Rain. Sun. Gone.
Left robbed unwilling, can't fight the feeling

It's never ending
Never goes away
But you did
It's never ending
Never goes away
But you did
Why, why?

The body's just a vehicle to hold until we find another space
Find another place to start this over
The enemy, the action I can't condone
Do you suffer with me?
Can I give you my loss, to feel, to hold close
Can I give you my pain, to feel, to be eaten alive by conscience
Suffer, fucking suffer, suffer like me

Life's not meant to be disposable
Lost. Found. Dead.
Ready and willing, can't stop the bleeding
Life's not meant to be expendable
Rain. Sun. Gone.
Left robbed unwilling, can't fight the feeling

 

7. Choices

Leaders are guilty of nothing
They're perfectly insane
But if they'd point the finger at themselves
Who would be left to blame?

Lead into grace, lead to corruption, ini-mini-miny-mo
A truth or lie has to be spoken, ini-mini-miny-mo
King or con has to be chosen, ini-mini-miny-mo
Way of life complete or broken, broken
Choices, no more choices, no more choices, no more choices

Leaders are guilty of nothing
They're perfectly insane
But if they'd point the finger at themselves
Who would be left to blame?

Follow truth or st-st-stutter through a lie, ini-mini-miny-mo
Will to push or give up and fall behind, ini-mini-miny-mo
Live with peace or nurture your tragic life, ini-mini-miny-mo
Bite the bullet or swallow it whole

Leaders are guilty of nothing
They're perfectly insane
But if they'd point the finger at themselves
Who would be left to blame?

Point the finger at yourself
There's no choice anymore anyway

We don't have a choice, anymore anyway
We don't have a voice, anymore anyway
There's no choice in freedom
There's no voice in freedom
We don't have a choice, anymore anyway
We don't have a voice, anymore anyway
There's no choice in freedom
There's no voice in freedom

Leaders are guilty of nothing
They're perfectly insane
But if they'd point the finger at themselves
Who would be left to blame?

They're lost system of destruction (leaders guilty of nothing)
Flush all hope down the drain (flush all hope down the drain)
But if they'd point the finger at themselves (at themselves)
Who is left to blame?
Who is left to blame?

We don't have a choice, anymore anyway
We don't have a voice, anymore anyway
There's no choice in freedom
There's no voice in freedom
We don't have a choice, anymore anyway
We don't have a voice, anymore anyway
There's no choice in freedom
There's no voice in freedom
We don't have a choice, anymore anyway
We don't have a voice, anymore anyway
We don't have a reason, anymore anyway
We don't have control, anymore anyway
We don't have opinions, anymore anyway
There's no choice in freedom
There's no voice in freedom

Freedom, buy in
Freedom, sell out
Freedom, betray
Freedom, lay down
Freedom, corrupt
Freedom, opinion
Freedom, give up
Freedom, give in

 

8. Forget To Remember

What have I done?
Where have I come from?
When I burnt the backs with the sun through a glass did I seal the loss that's become me?
Feeling undone
What have I become?
When I turned my back on you I turned my back on myself and became this machine

Thoughtlessness (I feel), selfishness (I feel), hopelessness (I feel), arrogant
I feel it on the inside (inside), twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside (inside), biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Shadows in the sun
Filter through us
Still wrestle the demons that arrested me as a child, confession rejected
We grow up
To give up
People step on the cracks for wounds owed paid back through the words of surrender

Emptiness (I feel), loneliness (I feel), listlessness (I feel), worthless
I feel it on the inside (inside), twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside (inside), biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Oh, can you save me from myself (myself), from these memories
Oh, can you save me from myself (myself), from these memories

Surrender, to the shadows, haunting inside, bleed through you
Surrender to the secrets inside, lies within you

I feel it on the inside (inside), twisting and contorting
Memory has shaped me once again
Still feel you on the inside (inside), biting through and stinging
Will I ever forget to remember?

Can't feel you on the inside (inside), set down the bag and left it
Lost memory has left me one again
Open up the inside (inside), admission for the cleansing
Now that I've forgotten to remember

Surrender, to the shadows, haunting inside, bleed through you

 

9. TV Radio

You incomplete me, you tune me into
Whitewash, spoon fed, brain dead, sloth
I'd watch the paint dry before giving in
Black out, stupor, inferior, insignifigant
False stars above keep us sedated
Satellite, astronaut, spaceship, the government
I'm overdosing on reality
Don't stop the feed, no don't touch the feed

I don't wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV
I don't wanna wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV

Eliminate me, you turn me into
Lifeless, cliché, thoughtless, unbelievable
So bored with my life entertained me with
Normal, usual, average, it's so typical
Artists traded in for the talentless
Spoiled kid, wife swap, tycoon, the has-beens
So entertaining it makes me sick
Don't stop the feed don't, no don't touch the feed

I don't wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV
I don't wanna wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV

I'm so uninterested, so unamused
Dissapointed in yourself, to be so consumed
I'm so uninterested, so unamused
Dissapointed in yourself, to be so consumed
Buy nothing, nothing
Buy nothing, nothing

I don't wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV
I don't wanna wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV
I don't wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV
I don't wanna be, wanna wanna be, I don't want to be here
Wanna wanna be here so let's go
Turn off the radio, turn off the TV

 

10. Just

Just a few seconds away (away), from everyone, from everything
Just a few seconds away (away), a second of your time and an inch of my own space

Silence (quiet) need a little peace of mind, after all this, after all that you do
Shut it up, zip it, I need a little time to think, without all this, without all that you do
Keep it, don't want it, think I'll just go away, away from here, from you
Time out, walk it off, think I need to throw a flag, just a little break from the games that you play

Just a few seconds away (away) from everyone, from everything
Just a few seconds away (away) all I want from all of you
Just a few seconds away (away) away from this, it's neverending
Just a few seconds away (away) a second of your time and an inch of my own space

Beat it up, whip it, top it with a little scream, all that you are, for all that you do
Crush it all, kill it, calling out my enemy, don't want anything, I want nothing from you
Dry it up, baby, turn around and walk away, cry your tears, pussy
Lift it up, destroy it, build it up to tear it down, all the little things that make me run away

Just a few seconds away (away) from everyone, from everything
Just a few seconds away (away) all I want from all of you
Just a few seconds away (away) away from this, it's neverending
Just a few seconds away (away) a second of your time and an inch of my own space

Stop talking, stop bothering me, just walk away, I've had enough today
I have a life too, I've had enough of you, feel like screaming, so go the fuck away
Go away, go away, go away, go away

Just a few seconds away (away) from everyone, from everything
Just a few seconds away (away) all I want from all of you
Just a few seconds away (away) away from this, it's neverending
Just a few seconds away (away) a second of your time and an inch of my own space

 

11. All That You Are

Repeating in my head, betrayal
Repeating in my head, insecurities
Repeating in my head, dividends
It's not your fault, the well of thought and trust has run dry
Don't be afraid to let go
Don't be afraid to start over when it's over
Let go, let go, let go, let go

Let go of feelings, let go of compromise
Hollow trunk for shelter, so dark and cold inside
I always seem to find myself alone
Jaded shell of being, porous as a stone

Calloused, rigid, empty, because of you

Let go of trusting, lost thought for family
Let go of living, no more concerns of demise
I never seem to find rhythm for life's harmony
Contorted, twisted broken, without a reason

Calloused, rigid, empty, because of you
It's all me all you are, without me, there's nothing else, there's no one
Brainwash all you are, without me, you're by yourself, there's no one

Hope is out of season, lost sight, no hint of light
Get busy living or get busy dying

Calloused, rigid, empty, because of you
It's all me all you are, without me, there's nothing else, there's no one
Brainwash all you are, without me, you're by yourself, there's no one
Save me, this loss, closure my, answer, so grant it
You owe me all that you are, without me, you're nothing
You're no one

Terrified, petrified
Nothing, you're no one, do you care because I don't
Nothing, you're no one, nobody cares so just go
Nothing, you're no one, by yourself all alone

It's all me all you are, without me, there's nothing else, there's no one
Brainwash all you are, without me, you're by yourself, there's no one
Save me, this loss, closure my, answer, so grant it
You owe me all that you are, without me, you're nothing

 

12. Pulling The String

Running, I'm always running from myself
No one to help me, no one knows
Not that anyone who knew would care
Dangling, hanging from your tree
Am I an ornament of longing
A seed trapped inside the shell that is me

Nobody can save me from this, from myself
Hurricane of head space, spinning, circling
Stacking up the walls that hide you, from myself
Crumbling pieces of me, an offering to you
Falling gifts from me to you, left nothing for myself
You had my cake and ate it too, and left nothing for me

Fist for breaking
These eyes for seeing right through
Heart for you to trample
Confidence lost
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
From this loss
This right of passage, denied
Holding the headstone
Tied to no one, loosen the knot, pulling the string

Losing, feels like I'm losing all my worth
No one to notice, no one would care
If they took the time to stop and stare
Nobody has the time for me, for myself
Blistering pieces of me, I'm giving them to you
These sweet whispers are from me to you
Want nothing for myself
You hold my world inside your hands, and leave nothing for me

Fist for breaking
These eyes for seeing right through
Heart for you to trample
Confidence lost
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
From this loss
This right of passage, denied
Holding the headstone
Tied to no one, loosen the knot, pulling the string

So sorry, for whatever it was I've done, so I'm deserting
Sincerely, me

Got to just be, you've got to just know
I've got to leave, it's time for me to go
So here's the note, I've left the key
I hope that when you find this
I've left you with a happy ending

Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye,
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye, goodbye

Fist for breaking
These eyes for seeing right through
Heart for you to trample
Confidence lost
Nothing to lose, nothing to gain
From this loss
This right of passage, denied
Holding the headstone
Tied to no one, loosen the knot, pulling the string

I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string
I'm tied to no one (no one), pull the string

["There we go"]
[Laughter]